Grampy always said, “When the world ends, it won’t go out with a bang. It’ll go with a whimper.”
A’course he died a decade back, so he never knew.
I been thinkin’ on him a lot lately. Cantankerous old man who always had to prove hisself right.
Most of our kin are hidin’ in their root cellars, clutchin’ their bibles or their rifles, whichever they put more stock in.
Me? I’m sittin’ here in the yard, listenin’. As the sun goes nova, the sky burns. Sounds more like a tea-kettle shriekin’ than a whimper. But it’s definitely not a bang.
I watch them as they cross the street, caroling, gamboling, some almost cartwheeling in their excitement. They are a joy to behold in all their many costumes. There are witches and ninjas, cowboys and furry blue monsters. There are princesses and hobos, a ladybug, a clown. There are babies in strollers disguised as a pea in a pod, or there, a bumblebee.
The decorations on the houses are an invitation, letting these little masqueraders know which to approach. Tissue paper ghosts hang from trees, plastic jack-o-lanterns glow, and molded zombies push their way up from beneath piles of dead leaves.
“Come on, hurry!” Daisy says beside me, hidden beneath the bushes. “All the good candy will be gone!”
I won’t be rushed. I’ve been looking forward to this night all year, and I’m going to have the very best costume ever.
There, rushing past my hiding place, is a group of children. They are all of an age, perhaps ten years old. One is a pirate, black greasepaint on his cheeks to pretend beard stubble, and a black patch perched over one eye. Another wears a red and blue body suit, a large black spider on the chest – he is a superhero. I’ve seen them before, but I’m not impressed. Here’s a girl in a sparkly dress and shoes, a wand held in one hand, spangled wings strapped to her back.
“Billy, we’re running out of time!” Daisy hisses, poking me in the side with one bony finger.
“Shut up,” I whisper back, watching the last of the group approach the nearest house. He’s smaller than the other boys, dressed in a satin vest over a dazzling white shirt. Real leather shoes, shined by someone who knows how, peek out from beneath freshly ironed slacks. He wears a black cape, thrown back with pizzazz to show the scarlet lining. His black top hat is a little too big, but still dapper. A tiny fake mustache has been glued to his upper lip, and he carries a stuffed white rabbit under one arm. A magician, yes, he is. Seeing him is like magic.
“Billy!” Daisy whispers, poking me again, but I ignore her.
“Trick or treat!” the children yell, holding out bags and baskets when a woman answers the door. She oohs and aahs over their costumes, handing out her dole of candy. The first three children quickly head to the next house on the block, but the magician is saying thank you for the candy.
“Shut up,” I say to Daisy, wiggling out from under the bush. When the magician leaves the house, cutting across the lawn to catch up to his friends, I’m right behind him. In the shadows of the nearly leafless trees, I reach out to touch his hand, snatching at his sleeve like a stray wind.
***
We make it home just as the big clock in town chimes midnight. Mother oohs and aahs over our costumes, and Father laughs when he sees mine.
“Magic, huh?” he says, scratching a cracked yellowed nail along his bony chin. “Where did you find it?”
“Over on Sycamore,” I say, turning so he can see the whole outfit. The black and scarlet cape swirls, the shined leather shoes gleam, and the boy’s pale skin glimmers in the moonlight. He was a small boy, and it’s a tight fit, but I’m proud of this year’s costume.
“Alright, children,” Mother chimes, “Time to put your costumes away.”
“But Mom!” Daisy complains, letting Mother help her out of her costume with a pout. “Halloween only comes once a year!”
“Yes, I know dear,” Mother says, laying the blond girl’s skin, dressed in a ballerina’s leotard and tutu, across the nearest headstone. “But it will be Halloween again before you know it.” She’s smiling, though it’s hard to tell; her lips rotted away long years ago.
Jodi heard scratching at her bedroom window. She rubbed her eyes. The glow-in-the-dark clock said it was 12:00. She looked at her door, but it was closed. After trick-or-treating around the neighborhood, and sampling some of her haul of candy, Mommy had helped wash off her make-up while Daddy put away her goblin costume.
The scratching came again, and she sighed. Out of bed, she crept to the window and pulled back the lace-trimmed curtain.
Hideous wart-covered scaly faces peered in, sharp fangs bared with delight.
“Halloween is over now,” Jodi hissed. “You’ll have to come back next year.”
Leto saw the pearl on the beach. No shell lay nearby, no sign how it got there but the mark of high tide. He approached cautiously. Gifts from the sea could be dangerous.
He crouched close, but did not touch. The pearl was large, big as his thumb, and perfectly round. On the curved surface, he saw a blurry reflection of his own thin face.
Slowly he extended one narrow hand. Fingertips grazed the pearl, and the trap of seaweed and bone sprung up from the sand. In the shallows, hungry mermaids smiled fiercely as they hauled in their catch.
Cody was small, much smaller than his brothers. They all topped him by inches and outweighed him by pounds. His eyes were large in his narrow face, and his elbows and knees always seemed in the way. His brothers made fun of him.
“When it comes time for you to shift,” they would taunt as they pinched his thin arms or pulled his black hair, “You won’t be a crow like us. Not even a jackdaw or a rook. You’ll probably change into a cricket!” Then they would laugh raucously, sounding like crows even when they wore their human shapes.
Cody didn’t cry, and he no longer tried to fight back. They were bigger, and there were six of them, and he never won. So instead, he stole away and hid where they were too big to fit.
“I won’t be a cricket,” Cody vowed to himself fiercely. But no one could say what anyone would become on the eve of their thirteenth year, when their first change occurred. His brothers all became crows, like their father. Their mother had not been a crow, although Cody did not know what she had been. She died when he was a baby, and Father did not speak of her.
As his birthday neared, Cody avoided his brothers. “When you become a cricket, be sure to hide,” they would call to him. “Crows like to eat crickets, you know.”
Finally his birthday arrived, and the change was upon him. His brothers waited in crow-shape, to further torment the cricket they expected. Cody stretched, still thin and large-eyed, but no longer were his knees and elbows in the way. He was strong and sleek, a hungry black cat.
“I don’t mind eating crow,” he said with sharp teeth, “How about you?”
Leaves cover the ground, brightly colored and crunchy, crackling with cool fire. Jacob, dark-haired and dark-eyed, uses the wooden and plastic rake to scrape them up in piles. The air is cool, the sky painfully blue, and everything seems as crisp as a ripe apple.
Bony fingers protrude from beneath the largest pile. Jacob pauses, contemplating the pale, curled digits; they seem to be beckoning. The leaves are but a temporary blanket.
“Afternoon, Jacob,” Mr. Jenkins, the neighbor, calls from his yard. “How’s your mother?”
“Time will tell,” he replies, rearranging the leaves. “Funny how beautiful dead things can be.”
So, Shock Totem’s blog is posting a series of articles/essays/random thoughts regarding our favorite Carcharodon carcharias (y’know, the shark). I’m pleased to share my own thoughts and memories on a movie that has become more than just a summer blockbuster. It’s an indelible part of popular culture.
I hope you’ll take a minute and go check out my guest post – you can read it here.
Thanks to John Boden for inviting me to participate.
I’ve been noticeably absent from my blog – not through choice but rather time constraints – I thought it fitting to return to it today. Just past Women in Horror Month, and it being International Women’s Day, what better time?
I am a woman working in horror, I am a woman writing horror, I am a woman raising a young woman… I am woman. There are some, though, who don’t approve of that fantastic mix of women and horror (I’m not linking to any of that shite), and refuse to read any horror stories penned by women. Hell, there are those who won’t read anything written by a woman, and while this might surprise some, it doesn’t surprise me – not in this world we find ourselves in.
Elitism exists in the publishing world, and has long-since been an issue for women who love the horror genre – those…
As a contributing author to Equilibrium Overturned, I was asked to participate in the Uncovering Evil Blog Tour, and am thrilled to do so. I’m not a philosopher or a theologian, so this won’t be a long drawn-out discussion of the nature of evil. Instead, I’ll just share a few of my thoughts.
I don’t personally believe in a devil or other personification of evil. Instead, I’m of the mind that evil is one side of the coin, with good on the other. I’m reminded of the line from the movie Legend – “What is light without dark? I am a part of you all.”
We all have a bit of darkness inside, the ability to do things that might be considered evil. I think it’s an evolutionary holdover, a survival trait. I’m not a killer, far from it; yet in defense of myself, or even more those whom I love, I could and would kill to protect them. There are a some who would call that evil.
In the simplest terms, I think anyone is capable of doing evil. There are myriad shades of grey involved, from telling a lie to betraying a trust, to causing physical harm to another. I think most people try to live the golden rule, to treat others as they would like to be treated. But I guess I’m one of the lucky ones, who have been surrounded by people with mostly goodness and light in their hearts.
However, that being said, I have no qualms about using evil as a plot device in a story. Evil in one form or another is usually the thing that gets a story going. In Through the Ghostlands I don’t really touch on the part evil plays in the story except in passing. Natural disasters and their aftermath cause the greatest changes that put my characters in the predicament they’re in. But the human reactions of fear and greed definitely fall under that umbrella. While I don’t consider the wandering spirits in the tale to be inherently evil, in some ways I guess they are. I see them more in line with the natural disasters of volcanic eruptions, earthquakes and tidal waves, where the harm that they cause is not intentional but simply part of what they are. Yet they are drawn to the living, to the life that has been lost and cannot be regained, and they cause harm with no regard for those they touch.
My original inspiration for Through the Ghostlands was actually a dream. I lived for a year in Florence, Oregon less than a mile from the beach. Often I would go to the South Jetty and climb the high sand dunes that run parallel to the beach, to spend time walking along the surf. I dreamed of being back there at the dunes, climbing up the steep eastern side with a monochromatic sky above, and when I reached the top found only a dead and empty sea. Waking up with that picture in my mind’s eye, I started writing. I wrote it in about a week, and can still see that dead world when I close my eyes.
Moonlight and Thorns 